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As loud as I wanted

Ah. Okay. Where were we?

Everything is happening at lightning speed. I have to get back to writing it down, or I’ll forget.  One morning, you wake up and you’re 33 years old, with two dogs and a spouse and a refrigerator full of esoteric vermouths and amari, and the next morning, you wake up and you’re 34 years old, with two dogs, a spouse, and a 12-week-old child in a bouncy chair on the floor in front of the refrigerator.  The other day at a doctor’s checkup, I actually told the nurse that I was 33, because I forgot that I’d had a birthday. 33, 34, same thing. In any case, I’m still a baby when I get a shot.

We are beginning to find moments of normalcy. On Monday, we put June in the car and drove to Vancouver to see Bruce Springsteen in concert.  He played "Cover Me," and it was sufficiently deafening that I could sing along as loud as I wanted without worrying that anyone would hear. I also ate a hot dog with yellow mustard.  It was outstanding. June stayed back at the hotel with our friends Katie and Kyle and slept through the entire show.  Someday, when she’s moaning about how ancient and uncool and deaf we are, I’ll tell her about the days when we were seeing Springsteen and sacrificing our hearing and she was drooling shamelessly all over a borrowed hotel playpen.

Twice now, Brandon and I have gone on dates. Real dates, without a small person around.  Of course, these dates are on Sundays, at lunchtime, and Brandon goes to work afterward.  The first time, we went out to lunch at The Whale Wins. (The sardine toast with curried tomato mayonnaise and shaved fennel! The whole roasted trout with brown butter and walnut sauce!  The brownie!  Eric Bordelet’s pear cider!) Then we went to see the new James Bond movie, which was exciting, except that we failed to note that the movie would end after the babysitter was expecting us home, and that meant that we were those people, the ones who trip on your purse while climbing over you and tiptoe sheepishly out of the theater with twenty minutes left. The second time, we went out to lunch again, and after having three-quarters of a glass of Champagne, I fell asleep in the car on the way back to our neighborhood. When I woke up, we were parked in the lot outside the grocery store, where we were supposed to be doing our Thanksgiving shopping, and over in the driver’s seat, Brandon was now sleeping.  We are pros at sleeping in parked cars.  Who knew? This past Tuesday, I had a fabulous nap in a parking lot on Granville Island, with cars roaring across the bridge over my head, while Brandon and June explored the market.

June looks exactly like Brandon when she smiles, and the rest of the time, or most of it, she looks like me. Early the other morning, in our hotel room in Vancouver, I heard her start to fuss in her playpen-slash-crib, and when I bent down to pick her up, she let out a tiny gleeful scream and I could see, even in the dark, that she was grinning at me. I don’t know if I’ll ever get over the fact that she exists - except when she’s having a flamboyant meltdown like she did yesterday afternoon while we attempted to take a walk, and then I am pretty sure that I will definitely, without a doubt, never ever get over it.

When we were first thinking about having a baby, I read Anne Lamott’s Operating Instructions - there’s an Anne Lamott book for every phase of my life!  Such a consolation! - and a couple of days ago, I decided to reread it.  There’s so much that she gets right. "Before I got pregnant with Sam," she writes on page 60, "I felt there wasn’t anything that could happen that would utterly destroy me. . . .  Now there is something that could happen that I could not survive: I could lose Sam. I look down into his staggeringly lovely little face, and I can hardly breathe sometimes. He is all I have ever wanted, and my heart is so huge with love that I feel like it is about to go off. At the same time, I feel that he has completely ruined my life, because I didn’t used to care all that much."

Sometimes when I’m driving, because I do all of my thinking (and now, sleeping) in the car, I think about Tina and my dad, all the people June will never meet. You’d think I’d be used to it, now that Burg has been gone for ten years next week, but grief always catches me off guard.  I can’t believe that June will never know my dad; that she’ll never get one of his scratchy, bracing, beard-forward kisses; that he will never have the opportunity to forget her birthday, something he was always so good at.  And then I think about the fact that June will never really think of my mother as a twin.  I just can’t believe she’ll never know The Twins.  Brandon tells me almost every day that he sees them in her, and that makes it a little better.

It feels good to come back to this space.  It never fails me.  Thank you, always, always, for reading.

P.S.  This song. (With thanks to my friend Brian for pointing it out.)  Stevie wins again.


Blogger Mari said...


8:38 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Erin said...

So, so good to hear from you, Molly. June's amazingly cute.

8:38 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger tangled sky studio said...

what a beautiful babe. it's all real, normal and it is what it is. enjoy!

8:44 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Row said...

This makes me feel sad and happy, all at once. Such beautiful writing. :)

8:44 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Dawn said...

Twelve weeks already?! That girl is cute as a button and growing So. Fast.

One more thing... the lemons! with that trout. My favorite part.

8:48 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Roberta said...

You need to write your own version of Operating Instructions. I have no desire to have a child yet this post is incredibly touching and real and it makes me wish that I'd met your dad! I love your writing, girl. You've got it going on. Now, go to your car and take a nap, for heaven's sake!

8:50 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Alanna said...

So good to hear your voice again. Congratulations, she's a beaut!

8:53 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Marta said...

Seeing that you have posted a new entry always completely makes my day. I am so thankful for your words. You make me so excited to have a sweet little one some day, and if she's even half as cute as your little June I might just die.
Enjoy every moment. Your life is so special! And please, for our sake, never stop writing!

8:54 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Tina said...

And thank you for continueing to come back. Such an amazing journey a child is. Really every day I couldn't possibly love my child more and then I do. He breaks my heart in teeny tiny ways daily.

8:56 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Kate said...

This was so evocative. Of everything. Early motherhood, getting your shit together (slowly), of missing people that aren't here anymore. Perfect. Also, the baby is so sweet!

8:58 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Hannah said...

June is the cutest! I can just imagine her grinning at you in the dark. And while she may never get a scratchy-beard kiss from your dad, she will surely know some part of him - as we all do - through your stories and memories.

8:58 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous ashley said...

Tears, again. Wonderful writing, again.

9:00 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Allison said...

This closing photo is beautiful (fittingly).

9:01 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Amy said...

This is beautiful, Molly. Love to you and your family.

9:05 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Gayle said...

Ah. June's a beauty. My "baby" is now 35. But I still remember the hugeness of that new love, and how it just gets bigger. Congratulations, and thanks for sharing your pictures. :-)

9:10 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Courtney said...

Thank you Molly, for sharing so much of your life in this space.

9:14 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger sara mansfield said...

The hair! So cute... My baby girl is just a couple weeks older than yours and she's just got wisps. I'm amazed by her everyday. Cheers to being a mama!

9:51 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Team Barber-Hallquist said...

Your baby is beautiful! Enjoy, enjoy for they grow up way too fast. Love your blog.

9:52 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Portia said...

Moved to tears. Thank you for another beautiful post.

9:55 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Emily said...

Thank you, for continuing to share.

9:57 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Kirsten said...

She is so lovely! After 6 weeks i felt like I could see again and after 12 I felt like I was maybe still alive. I loved Operating Instructions...also I highly recommend Waiting for Birdy. It's one of those "nudge your spouse to read a passage to him and 5 pages later you're a little hoarse" books. I'm happy you're still here.

PS: Full disclosure...I'm Natalie's mom. :)

10:05 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Kay said...

Oh my. When you talk about never getting over the fact that she exists...I so know what you mean. My boy is 13 months old and I still think it every day. I'm starting to think I always will.
And, just to say--she's gorgeous!

10:05 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Amy said...

I'm not sure if you've read "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn," but I finished reading it a few months ago and I was really taken by the idea humanity continuing, and continuing through our descendants. I was reminded of it when you talked about Brandon seeing your dad and your aunt in June. Here's a passage that I think you might like, which describes the narrator's thoughts following her father's death:

"If what Granma Mary Rommely said is true, then it must be that no one ever dies, really. Papa is gone, but he's still here in many ways. He's here in Neeley who looks just like him and in Mama who knew him so long. He's here in his mother who began him and who is still living. Maybe I will have a boy some day who looks like Papa and has all of Papa's good without the drinking. And that boy will have a boy. And that boy will have a boy. It might be there is no real death."

June is beautiful, by the way.

10:12 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Long time lurker - she is lovely and I wish you all the best!

10:16 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous dervla @ The Curator said...

Oh my gosh I love her. What a lucky little girl to have you keeping such a beautiful record of her childhood. Keep up those car naps, i'm jealous of them. Sleeping on the subway just isn't the same.

10:25 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Sanda Vuckovic Pagaimo said...

Oh...I missed your stories.They always put smile on my face. June is beautiful!!

11:46 PM, November 30, 2012  
Blogger Sheila said...

how lovely to hear from you again, and know that life is being good to you...

11:58 PM, November 30, 2012  
Anonymous Koronpa said...

You were up here this week!? Our daughter's preschool teacher went to the same concert and she couldn't stop gushing about Bruce :)
Enjoy those baby days--even the sleep deprivation part! You'll laugh at it one day!

12:18 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Sylee said...

So full of quiet joy. Love to you all.

12:41 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Heather Woollove said...

What a beautiful post!
...and the really amazing thing?
You just love them more, with each year and accumulated memory.
My eldest daughter (I have four...including identical twins) will be married in October, and I cannot believe the joy I feel for her.
(Plus, I'll now have a son to love, too!)

1:42 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Merisi said...

It feels so good to hear from you again, to learn that your are doing fine (yes, I know, no one ever tells you about the "thinking only in the car" part, it was about time somebody actually dared to write it down!). And sleeping patterns, now you are talking! I remember four babies and ten years of dreaming of six hours of uninterrupted sleep (never came true, but I learned to get a nap whenever and wherever I could. Great job, Molly, love that you sleep in the car when others to the driving or marketing!
With very best wishes for all of you,
P.S.: Have you read Penelope Leach? She was my lifesaver during the first years of motherhood.

2:17 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Merisi said...

It feels so good to hear from you again, to learn that your are doing fine (yes, I know, no one ever tells you about the "thinking only in the car" part, it was about time somebody actually dared to write it down!). And sleeping patterns, now you are talking! I remember four babies and ten years of dreaming of six hours of uninterrupted sleep (never came true, but I learned to get a nap whenever and wherever I could. Great job, Molly, love that you sleep in the car when others to the driving or marketing!
With very best wishes for all of you,
P.S.: Have you read Penelope Leach? She was my lifesaver during the first years of motherhood.

2:17 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous fabuloulsy frugirl said...

Long time lurker here.

June is beautiful and your writing is so touching. Much love to you and your family.

3:56 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger AuntieAllyn said...

It's too bad you didn't take little June to the Springsteen concert, but I suppose she's still too young to sing along with The Boss on "Waiting on a Sunny Day." Perhaps next time! It's so good to hear about you and your lovely family again.

3:56 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Laura C @ littleandlots said...

I love Anne Lamott, especially Operating Instructions, which I read at 34 weeks pregnant. I may have to go back, too, the quote you pulled gave me chills. Congratulations. June is perfectly lovely.

4:07 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Kimm Branch said...

beautiful...thank you for sharing. your daughter is just so precious and your images of her are amazing...just love when a new one pops up on instagram.

4:25 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Nicebroom said...

When my daughter was about 2 months old, I felt compelled to call my mother and weep "I get it now! I get everything! Everything you've ever said and done as my mother!!" She, of course, just laughed. But I do -- it's a lot like falling in love: your whole life and focus shift, so that you find a way to relate absolutely everything to this person (as my mother teased me when I was in high school, "Chairs? Why, Chris sits in chairs!")

Blessings to you and your beautiful family, and thank you for all that you write.

5:28 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger nhonzak said...

thank you for sharing your life and journey with us, i always await your words and savor each and every visit. you are an incredible writer, thank you again.

5:34 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Love reading your sweet, funny and tender stories about June. I read Anne Lamott's Traveling Mercies about 15 years ago -- what a touching and life changing book. I'll have to read Operating Instructions now!

5:51 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Laura said...

I remember when my son was few weeks old the moment I realized I could lose him. I thought what was I thinking? I created this being that can get hurt, get sick, and maybe die. That being is about to turn 15, eager to learn how to drive, almost a man, but that moment is etched in my brain for ever.

Lovely post, and what a cute girl you have. Enjoy every second, they grow so fast!

5:56 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger slip4 said...

June is beautiful, but you knew that, right? :) My kids are 21 and 17 and yet when I read your thoughts and experiences as a relatively new mom, I am right back there in those early days. Thanks for sharing!

6:12 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

this is beautiful Molly! I've been waiting for more pictures of June, she is so cute!

6:27 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Shanna said...

Of course you would write about motherhood this beautifully. Of course.

6:40 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Mallory Fay said...

June is lovely as are your words.

7:05 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Amanda said...

Here come the waterworks. So much of what I remember feeling when my son was tiny, and what I still feel now that he's three, and what I am terrified and excited about feeling again now that I am pregnant with another little one...

7:15 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Robin said...

Another long-time lurker... and cooker of many of your recipes (in fact, made your Zuni Cafe Polenta for Friend Thanksgiving last week, to much fanfare, and came here today to forward the recipe). I love your writing.

7:19 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Cheryl Arkison said...

I completely get the grief and new baby thing. My kids don't have their grandpas in their lives. My oldest might vaguely remember my Dad, but not really. We are constantly saying, "Oh, your Dad would have loved that!" When they say or do some particular thing. And it kind of creeps me out when my son looks at me and I think I see my Dad smirking back.

We do as you do, tell the stories and make sure they live vicariously through this youthful energy. Mischievous glints and smirks included.

7:31 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Juls @ JulsKitchen said...

Thank you, always, always, for writing.
Every time it is such a pleasure to stop for a moment and enjoy your fun posts, sometimes touching, sometimes hilarious, but always always so true and close to our feelings.
Speaking of Bruce, I just discovered (surprise surprise) that he will be back in Italy next summer, so for the second Christmas in a row the ticket for his concert will be my precious gift, something to share with my precious sister.
I am already excited, even though the 11th of July is a little bit far... but I know you know what I mean!
Have an amazing weekend a good sleep in the car! ;)

7:50 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Amélie said...

Beautiful post, beautiful baby.

7:53 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Laura said...

What an adorable baby! Your posts are always beautifully written, glad to see another one. I saw Bruce Springsteen in October in Charlottesville, VA. Wasn't it fantastic? 63 years old!

7:54 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Rachel said...

So glad to see you back, and love the posts about the new addition. She is just beautiful.

8:08 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger emmaproctor said...

so beautiful.

8:20 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous clémence said...

I love every word of this post... made me laugh and -almost- cry! June is so lovely!

8:51 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Susan B. said...

Just beautiful. Isn't parenthood amazing? Aren't kids amazing? Sigh. It goes by so quickly. Enjoy it.

8:59 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Wandering Educators said...

Love, love, love June. And your writing. Parenthood takes us by surprise, but it's the best thing in the world.

9:48 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Amy Eagen said...

June is beautiful! Parenthood is a real trip isn't it?
Know that your daughter may never meet those that you have lost but through the stories you tell she will know and love them.

9:49 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Ilke said...

Unfortunately it becomes our job to teach them about the missing them in the family and it is painful! Fortunately,though, makes me refresh the details of my past life. It is funny/sad/hard to think sometimes that the central people in our lives will never ever be any part of someone elses..and how life will be different for them. It is so good to read your post again and she is a bundle of smiles and good hair :)

9:52 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Susie said...

I feel so happy when I open my inbox and there is Orangette. You make me smile with your words and June is an absolute DOLL!

9:53 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Oana said...

Beautiful, Molly. I have not had a baby yet, too scared of everything. But being in my mid thirties, I want one now ... still very scared of everything though ... I don't know how you mom's do it. Thanks for posting.

9:54 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Judith Newton said...

Lovely column. Takes me back. My daughter is 27 and I still get that huge heart feeling. Enjoy it all.

9:56 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Valorie Grace Hallinan said...

Lovely writing, took me back to the early days of mommyhood. Always look forward to your posts.

9:57 AM, December 01, 2012  
OpenID girlseeksplace said...

Sweet post. June is a gorgeous baby.

9:58 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous valorie grace hallinan said...

Love your fabulous writing. Took me back to my early mommyhood days. And thank you for Lamott's words - I remember reading them for the first time. Always look forward to your posts.

9:59 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Sharyn Dimmick said...

June is so beautiful, Molly, and your writing enjoyable as ever. Operating Instructions is my favorite of Anne Lamott's books (and I don't have children). I just went to my first Springsteen concert last night in Oakland.

10:03 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Lys said...

I absolutely love seeing your posts pop up in my inbox, no matter how long it's been. Glad you're well.

10:04 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous www.betterlivingthroughfoods.com said...

Two Things:I Love Anne Lammot and your writing. Secondly, I know it sounds cliche, but squeeze the life out of your precious loving self, as the time just starts to acceperate, and soon your baby might be towering above you, unwilling to give a hug and, well, almost-all grown up!

10:20 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger atout said...

Oh Molly, I can't describe how much I loved this post. I am very very newly pregnant and have struggled for so long with the fear of having a baby (how do people do this so cavalierly?!?). Your words are reassurance that life, though it may look different, will still be beautiful and full of love. I love my Mom as a teenager and I cannot wait to see the reflection of her in my child.

10:49 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Stacy Rushton said...

Your dad would SO approve of that baby girl! I agree with so much of this post! They do indeed grin at you in the dark. You are her world and it gives her joy to know you are there. I read once that all a child needs to have to grow up knowing she is loved is to have her mother's eyes light up when she enters the room. I suspect June will have all that. And I love the book, "Operating Instructions"! My heart beats outside my chest in Providence, Rhode Island, where my two daughters are off at university. It's a tough, lovely, painful, joyous job, is parenthood. You get some sleep someday but, meanwhile you are doing great!

10:57 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Jennifer said...

Welcome back! It is so good to hear your voice again. Great post , just spot on. and June is adorable.

11:25 AM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Leona's Reviews said...

Beautiful. Enjoy her. I am on great grandsons now and still do not know where the time went.

11:25 AM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Kasey said...

Molly it is so great to have you back here. I know that today, I'm 29, without a baby, but in the blink of an eye, I'll be thirty, and with a baby, and I have no idea what life will be like then, but it sounds like yours is pretty great. Little people have a certain something that bring out folks who otherwise may not have thought of themselves as baby people.

12:23 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Welcome back Molly! I enjoy your writing so very much. I don't have any children but your happiness shines through in your words.

12:31 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

thank you so much. this is just what I needed today.

12:31 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Unknown said...

Beautiful Molly! Thanks for the book recommendation.

12:43 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Janine Morin said...

Thank you... as always so very good.

1:02 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've so missed you! I check back often just to be sure I didn't miss something new!
So glad to hear everything is going well. She's a beauty. Treasure every moment, as time really does fly! Please be selfish and grab every nap you can, as you need them for your strength and calm. And keep in touch, as I am certain there are many who miss you as well.

1:11 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Sarah said...

As everybody else has said, simply beautiful.

1:24 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous erinn said...

June, what a sweet face. It is such a fun stage, three months. I miss mine being that little. My oldest just turned thirteen last week and it seems like just yesterday that we brought him home.

Keep going on those dates. Four kids later my husband and I seem to have less time that is just the two of us. The older they get the busier THEY are and we never seem to have the time for just us.

So nice to read a new post!

2:01 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Lea said...

I look forward to your posts more than I can tell you.

2:09 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Julia Marks said...

You will oh so get over her meltdown. If you think the one at this little age is bad, just wait until she's 13.

2:11 PM, December 01, 2012  
OpenID summerplayshouse.com said...

glad to see you are back! June is beautiful. I feel like were kindred spirits. I had a baby only a few weeks before you- Eloise. Such a joy. I will have to get that Anne Lamott book.

3:05 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Stacy said...

Totally resonated. I'm expecting our first (a boy) in February and just read Operating Instructions myself. My dad passed away (also from cancer) last year and though I wasn't even pregnant at the time, I was so saddened by the fact that my future kids would never know him.

Glad to read new posts while I still can, before I'm the one sleeping in a car!

3:55 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Maureen said...

Until we have children the idea that a little person can consume our time and fill out hearts with such incredible emotion is tough to imagine.

Even when your children are as old as you are now - that feeling never goes away.

Wonderful to hear from you again. You sound very happy indeed.

4:17 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Merrymom said...

I have never read Operating Instructions.....but the words you chose are perfect......I have been looking for your post, so happy to see it pop up!
If you want a good read and laugh(in between sleeping in the car & everything else)....read..... It sucked and then I cried by Heather Armstrong
Love the photo of your Dad......the way he's in your thoughts.....

4:51 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Amanda said...

She's a beautiful baby and you really touched the essence of being a new mom. It's such a wonderful time. Write down as much as you can because this is a time that will pass much too quickly and you'll be grateful when you look back at the memories you preserved.

4:58 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous amy h said...

That's some fine writing there, Molly.

5:11 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Rebecca said...

It's good to hear from you !
The pictures of June are beautiful, and the words always welcome.

I too think about the fact my (unborn) children will never know my dad. It's so weird to think that he will be an abstract thought to them, just like when I think about the people in my family I never knew. I appreciate that they existed and I cherish the photos and I wish I'd known them, but that's about it, right ? Even though I can have an idea, I don't REALLY know what I've missed, and neither will they.
It's a heartbreaking thought.

But lucky June has their blood in her veins and that heritage, and that's humongus, eh ?

Enjoy all the next weeks and months together !

5:25 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Payal Shah said...

What a lovely post! I am enjoying the Fleetwood Mac song. Thanks for sharing. I love this blog, your writing and now June. What a beautiful baby.

6:19 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger The Peach in the Apple said...

There's also a Molly post for every phase of life. Thanks for sharing with us and always coming back. I'm very grateful to you :)

6:41 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You brought me to tears, happy tears, thinking of my son as a baby, and all the joys and trials of raising him. Peace be with you all.

6:49 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Heather said...

Ah, girl, you are right on my dime. Heart pulled inside out by a sleep destroyer, morning spent oddly engulfed in the sadness that said small human would not know a cherished uncle of mine. Crazy. Thanks for putting words on my day.

6:55 PM, December 01, 2012  
Anonymous Mamie said...

I love Annie Lamott as well. I read Traveling Mercies while I cleaned out my parents' home for the last time and was hooked. Congratulations. Napping in cars is very restful. Welcome to the wonderful parent club.

7:03 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger Heather {The Lovely Cupboard} said...

Just finished Operating Instructions (I'm pregnant with my first.)

I feel like I am growing into adulthood with Anne Lammot by my side. I read her books and cry, smile, then laugh so loudly that I snort...sometimes all on the same page.

7:36 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger just mignonne said...

How can a baby be this cute? Love your inspirational blog and your book.

9:34 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger KatyBelle said...


11:27 PM, December 01, 2012  
Blogger evie dear said...

so lovely, that quote got me :)

12:16 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Welcome back! You've been missed.

1:18 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger jen said...

love your writing Molly. thanks for sharing. you are one hell of a mom and brandon is an amazing husband and dad. enjoy every moment!

4:25 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Victoria said...


Sometimes you just leave me breathless.

5:00 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Cara said...

love reading your posts- been a loyal follower for years...keep coming back to "this space" and we will keep reading :)

6:21 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Stephanie said...

so beautiful, thank you for sharing

6:47 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger frances said...

One of the most unexpected parts of motherhood for me has been what I call "the dark side", and this post expresses it so beautifully. Coupled with my overwhelming love for my little boy is a pervasive sense of impending loss. He is so impossibly dear to me, and it's so scary to know what could happen to him - what will happen to us all someday. I spent a lot of time in my son's early weeks and months agonizing about what I would do if something happened to him.
Motherhood (my boy is a year old now) has also made me think so much about my own father, who died when I was 12. My loss has become my son's loss, and it makes me sad all over again. But now I'm sad for my father, too, who never got to see me and my siblings grow up, let alone our children. And I'm sadder than ever for my grandparents, who outlived two of their four children. I understand their loss completely differently now.
Even though I've now lived twice as long without my father as I lived with him the loss is still fresh. It's one of the poignant joys of motherhood that I've gotten to remember him all over again, and differently, as I parent my son. Motherhood makes me see lots of things in a new way.
This was such an apt post for me to see today - I was searching your recipes for an apple crisp to make for my father's birthday on Tuesday.

6:58 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Katie said...

She's beautiful! I know June will never have the chance to meet your father or your aunt, but luckily her mom is a thoughtful, family-oriented woman who is wonderful with words so there is no doubt that she will learn alllll about them! (ps. hooray for Anne Lamott! She has helped me through a lot, beginning with Bird by Bird when I was struggling through my senior writing project in college!)

7:01 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Pippilotta said...

Love your writing, it comes from the heart.

7:15 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger HRH Sarah said...

Great post, glad to see you back here. That child is so beautiful, it must be hard to keep from picking her up and giving her kisses!

7:59 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Andrea said...

Oh Molly, you have such a way. Love this.

8:18 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Ruthy (Omeletta) said...

Beautiful, beautiful. It's always such a thrill to come on here and find a new post- I love the clean way you write. It's been a while since a blog post made me a little emotional (so thank you!)

8:46 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

June is just waiting to learn how to cook and create new recipes.

9:31 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Lorene said...

welcome to the rest of your lovely, tangled, fraught,rich, and yes... sometimes sleepless life. No, you're will not remember every minute... or even most of them... but your heart does and will. Get some rest.

10:11 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Meagan said...

beautiful molly. thank you.

11:23 AM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger vikki said...

my husband's mother died, with no warning, 6 weeks before my third child was born. it's been 4 1/2 years now, and sometimes when i look at joseph, what i see is exactly how long helen has been gone. i know what you mean about burg; it's impossible to believe that people who were so formative to us and loved (or would have loved) our children so deeply can disappear from their lives. but i also believe babies can see what we can't, and there were many times i caught joseph smiling at something i couldn't see, and i knew he was giggling at grandma.

11:47 AM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ah, thank you. It is always a relief to read your honest posts.

2:04 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous linda said...

welcome back. she's wicked cute. my baby is going to be 25 at the end of the month. still not quite sure how that happened so fast.

2:42 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Donatella said...

Lovely. June is beautiful and clearly is surrounded by love. Hope you get more sleep...and lunch dates. : )

3:06 PM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Emily said...

She's even more adorable, which hardly seems possible.
Nice to hear from you, lady.

3:46 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Beth DH said...

Your writing always makes me smile. Last month I made it to Delancey & Essex while in Seattle for a job interview, being there felt so familiar from regularly reading your words. They were both phenomenal. I now only make white pizza w/ delicata squash on it & the cocktails & pickled goodness were a delight. Thanks for sharing your life with all of us.

4:23 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Marissa said...

You make me happy Molly. "Operating Instructions" by Anne Lamott - what a book. Sometimes I had to take a break from reading, it was so, real! And I don't even have children - but it ripped my heart out anyway then handed it back to me and it was bigger. I can't imagine reading it with a little one grinning up at me in the middle of the night from a borrowed playpen. :)
Anyway, thanks for sharing. xo

5:32 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous sacha said...

I love this post- thank you for sharing all of the things that you do here. Everything changes- your idea of a "date" the appropriate time for said date, where and when to sleep...

6:47 PM, December 02, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am the mother of three and grandmother of four and I don't think I have ever seen a more darling baby. You must be so proud. Anonymous

7:37 PM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger sophia said...

Thank you so much for the beautiful post! I really love your writing, and it is always a comfort to read when you speak of your father. I am 25 and lost my mother suddenly- with whom I was very close- a couple of months ago, and it really helps me to read your blog! I just wanted to let you know that I am grateful. Thank you again!

8:42 PM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Emmy Collins said...

really cute baby. I love to get updates about celebrities and their babies.

11:48 PM, December 02, 2012  
Blogger Gemma said...

So good, Molly. I was struggling to hold it together reading this. June is a beauty and you two are awesome. Much love to the three of you (and Jack and Alice of course).

3:02 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Carlinne @Cook with 2 Chicks said...

Beautiful! Beautiful baby, beautiful writing and beautiful to have you back.

3:17 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Margie said...

I love Anne Lamott....My daughter is 33, almost 34 and reading your posts brings back such sweet memories.

4:46 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous molly said...

Molly Wizenberg.
Anne LaMott.

How swell that we have another writer in town who's nailing, for the ages, motherhood in words.

Thanks, Molly.

5:45 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Megan said...

Perhaps you have a blog post for every phase of my life...your writing is so lovely no matter the subject, and I love LOVE the fact that you guys take cat naps in the car during dates. Hopefully such sweet anecdotes are in my future...

6:12 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, goodness. Such a lovely flashback to the first of the four babies now alive and well in the long-ago memory cache. I especially loved how Anne L. said Sam's hands looked like little stars.

6:20 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger stephanie haig said...

Sweetest post EVER. Thank you!

6:33 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Marni said...

It has been said here so many times, but I have to add my opinion that June is absolutely adorable! She brings smiles just to see her sweet face.
Thanks for continuing to post and share your new mother experiences. Such great memories - the ones you're making and the ones you bring back to me- even the intense sleep deprivation becomes a happy(ish) memory.

8:20 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Georgia Jones said...

It was a delight to see a post from you and even more delightful to see that beautiful baby. Enjoy every moment.

8:32 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger sk said...

I Just Love You. And your blog! Thanks so much for sharing yourself with the world. I'm a mama to my first baby, a 14, nearly 15-week old baby girl. I love the way you describe life-- it's so very spot-on.

8:40 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

This post was so, so beautiful. I've missed you. xxxooo

8:42 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger hannah said...

xoxo friend

9:03 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger jenifer lake said...

always, always so good molly. thank you for continuing to post. your june is just too much beautiful.

9:17 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Charlotte said...

Oh this takes me back to the early days of motherhood (my boy is now almost 7!). All the dark thoughts of what could happen - wierd. I love that you were taking a nap under the Granville St bridge last week (you were here!). Cars are great for thinking and sleeping. June is so lovely - the hair!
I have similar thoughts about our boy missing out on knowing my mum and I miss it like crazy for him. Burt your dad and Tina live on in you and now little June. Cheers and here is to lunch dates and long naps.

10:20 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Alison said...

Thanks for writing it down for us, too.

10:23 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Jen said...

So beautiful. And great to have you back here.

10:42 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Yasmin said...

June is just precious! At 22 weeks pregnant (with my first), I find great comfort in your words and experience. Thanks for sharing your wisdom and insights.

11:07 AM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger robyn said...

This is a really lovely post, Molly. I read Operating Instructions while pregnant but this was a good reminder that I should definitely re-read. I'm pretty sure, at the time, I glazed over the passage you referenced.....but now it makes me well up just a bit. Cheers!

11:18 AM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

My mom died the same year as your dad, I'm 34, and I now have a 16 month old daughter. I often think the same things: I can't believe my baby will never know her grandmother. It's heartbreaking.

12:23 PM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Michele said...

Ah. Such a voice you have, quiet and thoughtful and wise beyond your years. It is a joy to read your blog, to share a tiny bit of your happiness in being a mother. You brought back the overwhelming huge love I discovered when my first child was born. Thank you for sharing with yourself and your family with us....and for being a Springsteen fan!

1:38 PM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous maggie said...

Yes, you will get over her meltdown.... and then she will be two and say NO for the first time!!!! She is just TOO yummy for words. I don't even know you (three) and it is so easy to tell from your writing what great parents you are.... and what a lucky little girl June is.... And I lost my Mom 24 years ago, me not much older than you are now, and I still have those heartbreaking thoughts.

1:57 PM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Kara said...

There is something so so beautiful about young families. Thank you Molly for sharing your sweet corner of the world!

3:42 PM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Raychel said...

Molly, your writing is always so beautiful! You have such a gift. That June is a cutie! Love all her dark hair.

4:25 PM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Lauren said...

Molly, this might have been my favorite piece from you ever. I will think of this for years to come.

Thank you.

7:09 PM, December 03, 2012  
Anonymous Jade Sheldon said...

Your darling girl will know your aunt and father because she knows you. I honestly believe that. Beautiful post.

9:24 PM, December 03, 2012  
Blogger Zameer Zain said...

This reminds me so much, and also my childhood, i really miss my childhood. Beautiful Picture...!!

3:17 AM, December 04, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Enjoy her. AS someone speaking from the vantage point of 19 months ahead of you, take regular mini breaks to just marvel and enjoy her because this phase goes so fast. Too fast. I found a onesie by daughter wore when she was around 8 weeks at the bottom of my sock drawer the other day and I held it up and could not believe she used to fit in that. I wish I could go back to her birth and just spend more time staring at her and cuddling her (which, with a very active nearly 2 year old, is downright impossible)and not sweating the small stuff. Another book I enjoyed was A Life's Work by Rachel Cusk, it's more of a psychological study of motherhood but I found it comforting.

4:39 AM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger Daniel Oliver said...

Inspiring. Remember life first and blog second!

6:25 AM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger pia said...

Ahhh. I lost my mom over 16 years ago, and now with an 8 month old, if I think too long about him not meeting her and various other people we've lost over the years I find myself in tears.
Thank you for sharing.

9:08 AM, December 04, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ah you really made my day , such nice words, i had to cry a bit while reading this. This year we are also planning on trying to have a baby, im so scared :)))

10:46 AM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger Entre puntadas e hilos said...

I've never felt real fear until my baby boy was born. Fear he was hurt, or sick, or that I may loose him somehow. It is a wantonly but so real a feeling, so overwhelming... and he has destroy my life all right. No social life, no training (I had to stop practicing a marcial art after 13 years non stop), no movies but Disney's ... Still, I've got not regrets whatsoever.

11:18 AM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger Fernanda Robles said...

Beautiful pictures, beautiful babe,i´m so luchy to have found this blog, such a pleasure to read :)

12:06 PM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger michele said...

So beautiful Molly...

4:30 PM, December 04, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

And thank-you Molly for always,always coming back to us.

4:38 PM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger Deborah Claire said...

Molly, I just discovered your book and your blog. And just like that I'm devoted to you.

8:06 PM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger Aubrey said...

June's so beautiful I just gasped. And I know what you mean about Anne Lamott. Thank god for her.

8:16 PM, December 04, 2012  
Blogger ljw in texas said...

You are spot-on. Having a child makes your life experiences hit very high chords and very low chords. It's a whole new level. Just know that it is worth it. It's like the Steve Martin movie with Jason Robards as his father....had a lot of truth in it. You will never ever ever stop being a parent. You will always ride that roller coaster.....even when they are 30 years old. But your life is catapulted to a deeper level. No regrets for me! Have loved your blog since it began (& your book). Enjoy June...such a joy lwalding in texas

3:02 PM, December 05, 2012  
Blogger Anna said...

Every so often I come to your blog. It is at the end of the day. My little ones sleeping, (older one probably still awake). I read your book on my honeymoon. My husband and I on a lake northeast of Montreal Canada. Your post today touched my heart. I lost my Father almost seven years ago. He was the light in my life-my closest confidant. Everyday I miss him. As I write this post my newest little one sleeps nearby. She is 10 weeks old, beautiful and happy. She is named Charley after her Grandpa. Thank you for your post.

6:18 PM, December 05, 2012  
Blogger lindsaymauceli said...

I found this post so honest and so comforting. I too I had a baby boy around the same time June was born and can relate to so many things you wrote: what life looked like before, and now after, sleeping in the car, and finding a comforting and familiar space, like your blog. And I've been told by so many people to read "Operating Instructions" that I am going to the library tomorrow to get it! Thanks for the enjoyable read.

8:41 PM, December 05, 2012  
Blogger Jessica Marie Cafferty said...

This post brought me to tears. So incredibly beautiful, and lovely, and candid. Keep going on dates and sleeping in your car - and then soak up every moment you can with June (even the loud ones).

10:49 AM, December 06, 2012  
Blogger Emily said...

This post landed on my soul at precisely the right moment, Molly. Thank you. I'm also a new mom, reaching for sleep (and perspective, some days), and am so grateful to find spiritual companionship on this journey. Glad, too, to find myself now tilting back toward Anne Lamott! Boy, she's something. I'm going to pick up "Operating Instructions" right away. Best wishes as your adventure continues... June is exquisite.

By the way, after our twin girls were born in June, my husband and I delighted in our first post-babies date at Delancey. It was just what we needed, as always, and such a wonderful memory for us. Thanks for that, too!

11:46 AM, December 06, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lamont is right - once you're a mother, your life is completely ruined for caring so much.

Life is so much fuller with a child. Even the tiniest things seem to matter so much more now, but in a huge, awe-inspiring, choke-me-up-in-the-back-of-my-throat kind of way. And it's only going to get better. Not always easier, but always, ALWAYS better.

Keep it up, Molly.

11:55 AM, December 06, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

She is so adorable!!

2:14 PM, December 06, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I'm a new mommy too. You just summed up so much of what I feel, things I've never put into words myself. About how a new baby makes me think of my lost loved ones. And how I was so carefree before and now I have something to lose. If I could write like you... :)

7:55 PM, December 06, 2012  
Anonymous Vivian said...

june is beautiful. your words are beautiful. thank you for this post!

3:22 AM, December 07, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Molly, reading your thoughts reminded me of how grief changes as you change and life changes and can bring you to vulnerability within one moment. My mum has been gone more than 20 years and again grief is back for another round now that I have a new beautiful baby. Bless your little baby, she looks an angel.

5:40 AM, December 07, 2012  
Blogger AuntieAllyn said...

Was just rereading "A Homemade Life" on the beach on Grand Turk Island. I especially love the chapters that deal with your dear father, and I noted that today is the tenth anniversary of his passing. My dad left us six years ago. The good memories always make us smile, but the sadness lingers.

1:00 PM, December 07, 2012  
Blogger Cassy Workette said...

Your writing is beautiful!

xo Cassy

6:28 PM, December 07, 2012  
Anonymous Beth said...

Your writing is so darn funny, I'm sitting here cracking up and my daughter, who is also a June, tells me to take it easy, it will all be okay. Thanks for that- a great moment in front of the computer, and stuff to think about for a long time.

2:21 PM, December 08, 2012  
Anonymous Mel said...

Reading your words and Anne Lamott's words (I just read "Bird by Bird" and "Traveling Mercies" for the first time), I read not just your stories, but Beauty, Grace and Hope.

Thank you, Molly.

6:16 PM, December 08, 2012  
Anonymous Calantha said...

Always a pleasure.

2:20 PM, December 09, 2012  
Blogger Elizabeth said...

This post just made my afternoon. Cheers from the complete opposite end of Seattle :)

3:18 PM, December 09, 2012  
Anonymous missmayflower said...

Just found your blog from a link by Soulemama to your peppermint bark. What a beautiful blog! Just loved today's post - it is so moving. I immediately feel inspired to read all the books you mention and try your lovely recipes :)

10:28 PM, December 10, 2012  
Blogger Sarah said...

thank you for Stevie Nicks links and your beautiful writing. It calms me and makes me feel cozy. Your daughter is beautiful.

9:17 AM, December 11, 2012  
Anonymous Sue P said...

I love your writing and am so happy to read updates on your life and of course, June. Such a beautiful baby.

9:33 AM, December 11, 2012  
Blogger lydia said...

I love this post. I haven't visited you for a while.. but I am now before I crawl off into bed. I have a five month old. One month ago we went out on our first date - to see Bruce Springsteen no less. It was so exciting I had butterflies in my stomach - and they were equally parts for The Boss and for being away from my Little. I even drank a beer. Thank you for sharing. xo

7:05 PM, December 11, 2012  
Anonymous Six Dollars A Day said...

Yay, welcome back! I loved reading this.

8:49 PM, December 11, 2012  
Blogger Johanna said...

Molly, I'm such a fan of yours and I've especially loved all your writing about baby June. Thanks for sharing!

11:54 AM, December 12, 2012  
Anonymous Hjarta said...

Molly, thanks for so openly sharing your experience of the first few months of parenthood...it brings me hope as a fellow Seattleite thinking about taking the plunge! And speaking of Stevie, a friend of mine just wrote a lovely essay on her that I thought you'd like... http://www.avidly.org/2012/12/11/nicks-fix/

5:17 PM, December 12, 2012  
Blogger Claudia said...

The day after my son was born, my cousin called me and announced "You'll never be safe again." She was right. But I do love caring so much. But you didn't have to make me tear up! Enjoy the ride! And try sleeping in a bed again.

5:19 PM, December 12, 2012  
Anonymous Jeff @ Cheeseburger said...

Hi Molly! Congratulations on being a mom. June is sooo cute!

9:50 PM, December 12, 2012  
Anonymous Jo said...

I have always been reading. I'm glad you're back, and I hope everything has been more than a-okay. Virtual hug for you!

7:16 AM, December 13, 2012  
Blogger teryll said...

Will never stop reading. :)
Thanks for the tear-filled post today, cleansing. I too am a huge fan of Anne Lamott. She is the REAL deal! Merry Christmas!

10:34 AM, December 14, 2012  
Blogger Cristy said...

I've missed hearing your voice.

Thanks for sharing with us.

8:06 PM, December 15, 2012  
Blogger balderton said...

Great post. The part where you reference Anne Lamott caring for her child carries even more meaning following Friday's shooting in Connecticut. Love on June.

4:26 PM, December 16, 2012  
Anonymous kathleen said...

Oh, my goodness, she is adorable! (but you didn't need anyone to tell you that!)

Anne Lamott is pretty great, too.

4:25 PM, December 17, 2012  
Blogger Jill said...

At this point, I'm going to sound like a broken record, but I'm going to give my comments anyway.

1. I have missed your presence on your blog, too. Not only the amazing recipes, but more... your voice and perspective on things. So, welcome back.

2. I have never read that Anne Lamott book but I will now. What she said is so very true. Which is why I knew you'd be gone for awhile and then back again. Because babies change so many things, especially sleep patterns.

3. She is absolutely adorable!


2:41 PM, December 18, 2012  
Anonymous moniliform photography said...

This has really helped me understand the way my parents behave towards me...as a teenager, I sometimes forget that what I perceive as overprotectiveness is really just the manifestation of their deep love for me.

Thank you for that, and congratulations!


11:36 PM, December 18, 2012  
Anonymous Anakalia said...

Discovered your blog because I just read your wonderful book. Love it, thanks for writing and sharing. http://anakalianwhims.wordpress.com/2012/12/20/a-homemade-life-in-the-south/

4:40 PM, December 19, 2012  
OpenID ourpeasandcarrots said...

It's always so wonderful to read your writing, no matter if it's about food or family. Thanks for it! You are as entertaining and endearing as Anne Lamott (love Bird by Bird - thanks for telling about it!). Keep writing, loving your family, and cooking. Merry Christmas to the new family!

7:38 PM, December 20, 2012  
Blogger Alli said...

A great read. Thanks for sharing. I recently read your book, which I adored, and now I am here, checking out the nooks and crannies of your blog. Have a fantastic holiday!

9:32 PM, December 20, 2012  
Blogger Olof Drofn Eggertsdottir said...

My 3rd little boy is now 12 weeks and yes loosing one of my children would destroy me. So like most mothers I worry about the choices I make for them or if this or that will cause damage or that I can´t wrangle all of them at the park and that one will be taken away from me. That moment when your heart skips a beat until you have visual conformation of a living breathing child. Welcome to motherhood and hang on tight for the ride!


7:52 PM, December 22, 2012  
Blogger Julietta said...

No, thank YOU, for writing! Good to see you back on the interwebs.

9:32 PM, December 22, 2012  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You words are beautiful and a reflect of an even more beautiful heart. June is a blessed baby. She will know Burg and Tina through you and in you.

12:59 AM, December 23, 2012  
Anonymous Laurel said...

She will know your father in a different way, in the heart wrenchingly beautiful way you captured him in your book. I feel like I know him, and I don't even know you! You have a gift with humbly opening yourself up and sharing your world and she will know what's important in life because of that.

Side note: My husband and I served your Bouchon Au Thons last night at our annual Christmas Eve dinner and our entire family freaked out with joy.

10:47 AM, December 25, 2012  
OpenID curlygirlpress said...

Molly, I have a 21-week old boy and a full time job, which is why I'm just now responding to this post... but I have to tell you the days keep getting better. Those smiles they gift us with, the personality that continues to shine, the tantrums and hugs and laughs - nothing is better than this. And June is such a beauty! She has my little man beat in the hair department, that's for sure. = )

3:21 PM, December 27, 2012  
Blogger missyjane20 said...

As always, love love LOVE your writing. June is cutie too!

7:03 AM, December 29, 2012  
Blogger Julie said...

Molly - and one day you wake up and you're 48 and your little baby girl is 16 and a young woman...believe me it happens fast. I'm just another mom telling you to live in the present because it goes so fast...but..live in the present. Because it goes really fast.
In the meantime, please read my book (now very old) called Planet Parenthood: Adapting to your new Life Form. It's all about what you're living now, turning into parents.
Love your blog even more now...if that's possible.

12:19 PM, December 29, 2012  
Blogger Ariane said...

Your baby June is so so cute! Congratulations!
I really like the way you write about everything! I lost my mother 12 years ago so she never met neither my husband or my two little boys. It makes me so sad at times... and at the same times, I'm so grateful for the legacy she has left and that allows me to live all this beauty...
Your book was on my christmas list and I received it!! :-) I'm really happy and it is a good opportunity for me to practise my english!
Thank you very much for your blog, your writting, everything!

1:19 PM, December 29, 2012  

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